February 2018 Goals

January is not so much a productive month as it is a hibernation month, which I am more than okay with! February though is full of the promise of Spring and therefore the promise of new beginnings.  Here is what I’m working on this month:

Books: I’m planning on reading three different books this month.  I recently took an enneagram test and am super interested in the way that this test can be used to help create a better person. I’m not sure which book I’ll be reading, but I want one that will allow me to gain some insights into the differences between Kenny and I and lead to a better relationship. Andrea Howe of howewelive.com recommended a book, Body Love.  I tend to struggle with some body image issues and am hoping this book that focuses on nutrition and viewing the body as simply a body will help me out. I’m also planning on finishing Yin Yoga. My yoga class (that I rarely attend) doesn’t have a whole lot of one on one teacher interaction and I’m hoping the instruction in this book will help me with my postures.

Garden Planning: Tis the season! We have had incredible winter weather out here in Idaho and I will be taking advantage.  This month: cleaning up the backyard and building a couple of garden beds.

Homeschool Curriculum: Pinterest can be an incredible tool and also a gigantic waste of time.  I’m done pinning and ready to plan out our preschool curriculum!

Organize: Next on the to organize list- finish deep cleaning master bedroom and bathroom, laundry room, dining room.

Celebrate: Valentine’s Date- Yay for dates! Yay for great baby-sitters! Eli’s Birthday- we are doing a small birthday party and Disneyland!!!




Zoë 9 Month Update



Weight: 17.5 lbs

Eating: Girl loves it all, all the time.  I would love to be able to come up with a favorite, but she literally loves everything. For now I’ll say that avocado and raspberries top the list.


Clothing: 6-9 month clothing still; but due to the weather and long lasting colds, we have mainly been in pjs for a month.


Naps: 2 naps a day, 45 minutes to an hour and a half at a time; and she for sure lets us know when we have missed her naptime- even if it’s only by 10 minutes.


Sleeping: Zoe’s bedtime is about 6 at night and she typically sleeps for 13 hours!! I am so so thankful for the long stretch of no baby :). She does sometimes wake up a coupe times, but we are slowly moving away from that- this killer cold is making the process take much longer than I would like.




Likes: She likes attention- lots and lots of attention.  Loves legos and things with a face, dolls, animals, people :). Playing in the bath and eating all the food. Having me hold her while I chase Eli and fake falling from my hip.  Standing up, pulling herself up, basically just being bigger and taller!




Dislikes: Being left alone, she has recently started throwing a fit when I set her down and walk away from the room (the horror!). Anyone missing her sleep cues and keep her up past when she would like to be asleep, this sounds vaguely similar to me…




Development: She’s crawling!!!!!!!! Yay yay yay! Zoe is still not super willing to come chase us down and really prefers to be catered to by having everyone come to her- big surprise. She claps almost on command and it is adorable, but I think may favorite new trick is when she tries to smile- its terribly awkward and forced and so funny! Still no teeth, but starting to learn to balance on her own and is pulling herself up.  Hoping walking is not far behind us!





Sibling Update: Zoe and Eli still adore each other which is wonderful.  They are getting to the stage where they can begin to play together. Most mornings when Zoe wakes up, I give her a bottle in her crib and go lay down, when she is done, Eli goes in and plays with her- giving me extra sleep :).  The only struggle that Eli has had with having a sibling is starting to want to go back to being a baby, help with clothes, wanting us to feed him.  Sometimes the attention that Zoe receives, fights against Eli’s desire for independence which can make him a little difficult to deal with. I keep thinking Eli will want to just spend time with us, but when I suggest is, he is quick to add that he wants Zoe to come with us- melt my heart.


Mom and Dad Update: We are doing well and starting to get into the groove of having a traveling parent.  Its just bizarre to me how much our kids look like Kenny, but seem to really carry my personality when it comes to their “challenging” behavior traits 🙂 These kids drive me crazy and yet I can not get enough of their snuggles and their tantrums. It’s just wonderful getting to watch them grow.




I am so pumped on this new year and can’t wait to dive into it! While 2017 was a good year for me, for many that I know it was one that they can’t wait to be out of. Our 2017 we got to meet our baby girl, we found our footing as parents of two and Kenny got a new job.  Don’t get me wrong, our baby girl is amazing, but the thing I think I am most excited about is Kenny having this new job.  We have been on the edge of our seats, wondering when and if Kenny was going to get a job with Dutch Bros. HQ and if we were going to be moving to Oregon.  Kenny’s job with Canyon County has been amazing and allowed me to only need to work very part time, but it also had a schedule that changed daily and no “off” hours. To say I am happy about being settled for the next year is a massive understatement! With this little catch up on our lives, let’s jump into the goals, dreams and hopes for the new year!

Travel: YAY! Our new family schedule is going to allow us to know what our lives are going to look like 3 months out, plus have some large blocks of time together. Meaning we are going to be together as a family, be together as a couple and go on some trips.  As of right now we are looking at Disneyland trips, Seattle, Portland, Banff,  D’alene, a beach trip, camping, a couples trip (hopefully to Mexico!) and possibly a trip to Hawaii! We are just really really excited to be together and make some family memories.

Books: Last summer I started getting into reading again and wanted to really focus on learning and expanding my mind. I want to keep going with that goal, but be a little bit more intentional with it, I often bite off more than I can chew and then give up, not this time! Two “thinking” books a month.  If I have time for something with a more entertainment driven storyline great, but I’m not counting on being able to do more than 6 of those type of books next year.

Savings: We are definitely a little late to the game, but this is the year that we start saving for our retirement.  Scary, exciting and just bizarre.

Garden: It’s been my goal every year for far too long, but I’m ready to move beyond tomatoes. We have a nectarine tree (fingers crossed it begins to produce this year), tomatoes, raspberries, strawberries and blackberries, but I want to seriously expand that. Our entire side yard is wasted space, begging for a garden.

Organize: While Kenny travels, I’m hoping to pick a room a month and have a completely streamlined home by the end of the year.

Writing: I’ve been working on a children’s book series for about 6 months and by working I mean I have notes and lines scribbled in 4 different notebooks all over the house. I’m finishing these books this year!

Fitness: Half Marathon this year! I love going for runs, but I want to have a real goal to go for this year and I’ve been talking about a half marathon for years. I’ve also recently gotten into hot yoga and want to go once a week, bonus- they have recently added some classes with provided childcare!!

Intentional Relationships: Quality over quantity is good in theory, but all relationships need both to thrive. I’m looking to minimize my multitasking when it comes to relationships and make sure to carve out time for the ones that I care about instead of just trying to squeeze them in.

It feels as though our lives have been chaos since Eli came into the world in 2014 and this is our year to be in it! I hope you are looking forward to this next year as well!

7 Month Update



Weight: 16 lb. 4 oz.

Eating: Our little squawking terra-dactyl continues to blow my mind with how much food she can consume and how much she LOVES to eat.  She has started feeding herself and her pincher grasp is greatly improving. Zoe loves to eat and can’t stand when other people are eating and not sharing with her. We have moved her from purees to basically whatever we are eating.



Clothing: Still solidly in 6-9 month clothing.

Naps: We are typically down to 2 naps a day and it is glorious! We have also just now gotten rid of the zipadee swaddle.



Sleeping: Zoe is still a pretty good sleeper.  We have been struggling just a bit, its been difficult to transition her from the swaddle she was used to, but I am determined to beat her at this. Her bedtime is all over the place right now due to transitions from 3 naps to 2, and losing her swaddle, but we try not to get her down before 6 or keep her up past 7:30, waking up between 7 and 7:45.

Likes: Eli. She LOVES her brother, can’t get enough of playing with him and generally being smothered by him. Daddy. Lights up the second she sees Kenny, just wants to pull on his beard and watch him. Smiles. Anytime anyone smiles at her, she lights up back at them. Typical second child, loves attention all the time.



Dislikes: Not getting sleep when she wants it, not getting food when she wants it. So… not getting what she wants when she wants it!

Development: Zoe is still not crawling, or making any effort at all to do so. She wants to be a part of the action all the time. She loves to stand, but anytime she is laid on her stomach, she just lays her face on the ground and cries, giving up entirely. She’s great at sitting up and is starting to try to hop around on her bum, hopefully she will start getting some momentum soon!




Sibling Update: Still so much love and affection and adoration between these two.  Zoe waits for Eli to come and play with her and just lights up; giggling and watching his every move. It helps that Zoe is no longer so fragile that Eli may actually kill her with his playing. I don’t have the closest relationships with my siblings, but I am so hoping that these two continue to have the amazing bond they have right now.

Mom and Dad Update: Infants are not my thing, which means its always getting better and better around here! Being parents to two is a blast and noisier than I ever thought possible!


6 Month Zoe Update


Weight: 15 lbs 3 oz (weighed at the pediatrician this time)

Feeding: Oh our Zoe girl loves to eat! If you start feeding her and stop for a millisecond, she gets fussy; if she sees you eating and not sharing, she becomes irate. So far she hasn’t been displeased with anything that she has eaten, but she does seem to have a rather giant preference for bread, soups, carrots and water.  Zoe is also plowing through her bottles and has FINALLY stopped spitting up so very very much.

Clothing: 6-9 month clothing, 100%. I feel as though she has a really long torso which is making us plow through clothing sizes so rapidly (but let’s be honest, girl has some rolls going on.)

Naps: This month I tried transitioning us to two naps a day instead of three, however it did not go well.  For right now, we are doing three 45-60 minute naps a day, but if she happens to miss one or it gets delayed too much, she can do two okay.

Sleeping: I can not sing enough praises about Zoe’s sleeping habits.  My goal is to not be fully aware of the fact tat I have children between the hours of 9pm and 7am and she pretty much lets that happen. As long as I remember that she is a voracious eater and I feed her enough, she wakes up maybe once or twice a night for me to stick a binky back in, but sleeps from about 7 to 7/7:30.

Likes: Looking outside, bath time (especially with Eli), eating, soft things (cat, dog, bunny, blanky), being jiggled and tossed around a bit.

Dislikes: Poo diapers (HATES them, can’t blame her :)), not having ALL the attention on her, being left alone for too long.

Development: She’s rolling over!!! It feels as though she is behind Eli physically, but that may juts be because I don’t love the infant stage.  She is laughing and responding to us a lot more and starting to move herself around.

Sibling Update: Eli is still so kind and generous and patient with Zoe, he loves to play with her and is such a big giant help.  I try really hard to remember to tell her not to pull his hair or pinch him, because I’m constantly having to remind Eli to be gentle. I am just over the moon with how much they adore each other.

Mom and Dad Update: Life is good guys, life is really really good. We have these two amazing, loud children and even when they are challenging, there is so much joy in our world. Now that sleep is back on track, we will begin having at home date nights again!IMG_1427IMG_1433IMG_1435IMG_1439IMG_1446IMG_1449IMG_1452IMG_1500IMG_1505IMG_1511IMG_1515IMG_1520

Musings on Motherhood

From the beginning month of life with two:

It is gloriously liberating to not be concerned with a nap time.

On the other side: I miss nap time- bad. However when given the mystical moment when both littles nap, I don’t know what to do. As in last time it happened I watched the first 45 minutes of “Magic Mike”…

My happiest moments are when I am in the water with one or both kiddos. Except for the shower that is littered with toys.

Mothering two has been a constant lowering of expectations. Not the typical expectations of a clean house and meals, but allowing space and time for mothering to be my only priority. I don’t get to write as often (see, at all), I have very little alone time and going anywhere takes much much longer. Learning to live in the hard of parenting two has been a growing experience.

Parenting two has been the greatest joy, I feel as though it is exactly where I’m supposed to be.


October Goals

WOW! It has been a bit since I’ve gathered some goals up in this space and shared them with the world.  Having a baby is like taking a break from your real life for a solid year and half or so. Between trying, pregnancy, having a new baby and hormonal fluctuations, it feels as though I can not live my life because I’m living two lives, mine and the babies.  Does anybody else feel like that? It’s a glorious and magical experience to have and grow a baby, but it is also strange and so far outside of normal daily conduct.  Suffice it to say, I have not been in a make goals and achieve them frame of mind.  BUT! I’m back! Zoe is five and a half months old, I started to feel normal again when Eli was six months old, clearly I’m consistent somewhere in my life.

Get back to writing: I’d like to spend some more time in this space and on another writing project I’m working on.  Plus, just more writing in general: more lists, scheduled days, journaling. Writing for me is similar to running, it’s cathartic and clears my headspace and one of the few ways I know how to work through all my thoughts as they run over each other.

Halloween: Yay!! Eli LOVES Halloween; he likes ghosts, spider, vampires and monsters. I am having him make a final decision on his costume soon so that I can figure out the rest pf the family.  We are also going to decorate the house this year! Eli loves checking out everyone else’s Halloween decorations on our walks and I can’t wait to have our house set up for him to enjoy as well!

Weekly Projects: I have a list of larger projects that I would like to get accomplished, things like organizing the closets, so as not to get overwhelmed and do nothing, I am picking one thing each week from the list and slowly making my way through the list.

Get Outside: Fall is hitting early here this year and as soon as the weather starts to get cold I have a tendency to hunker down and not want to move. So we will be getting outside, everyday!

Healthy Eating: We are investing in a and I want to get back to a more plant based diet. We have instituted a “no thank you” bite rule into our mealtimes with Eli and his palate is already just barely starting to expand.

Marriage Building: In the season of creating and caring for a new baby, our marriage takes a bit of a backseat. I don’t necessarily think it’s a bad thing, something has to give somewhere, as long as the marriage doesn’t stay at the back burner. I’m looking forward to date nights out, and date nights in, board games, long talks, cuddling without constantly getting up to attend to children, finding a new tv show to get into.  I’m looking forward to getting to focus on being a wife first, mother second.

Wish me luck!

Motherhood Musings

I am still processing all that I feel about having two kids. The feelings and emotions are so incredibly vast and intense that I am still searching for the words. With Eli, I had this giant explosion of love and depth for that love that was overwhelming with its intensity. With Zoe it has been this slow unyielding of undoing over the life that I thought I knew and had a grasp on, that has been constantly surprising me with how much love I am capable of experiencing.

Organizing our lives and what I want them to look like has become  my favorite activity, I love dreaming about our family and looking to what the future holds for us.

Eli and Zoe have been following their gender stereotypes to a tee, he was a very physically proficient baby and didn’t talk until he was two, she is super vocal and is seriously lagging in the physical milestone department in comparison to Eli.

Zoe looks so much like Eli as a baby until you put her next to Kenny and you realize that she is his exact duplicate.

As our little family hits its stride and gets into a schedule and routine, I just want to find all new moms and tell them that motherhood requires a solid year and a half of trying to find solid ground.  The pregnancy through postpartum period is so fraught with sleep deprivation and wildly swinging hormones that it becomes really hard to trust yourself.

Eli gets more and more fun everyday, I find myself falling in love with his sweet little personality everyday.

Zoë Five Month Update


Weight: 14.5 pounds


Feeding: Girl loves to eat! She recognizes the word bottle and her eyes get all wide and she starts smiling and waving her arms back and forth, it’s hilarious! We are just barely started to introduce solids, she has been eyeballing any food that I put in my mouth for a couple weeks and she is pumped to get to try it herself.  She is however terrible at eating and mainly spits it all black out.  So far she has tried out applesauce, blueberries, peaches and tomato soup.


Naps: We have finally gotten on a schedule! On the one hand it is glorious to have her get regular sleep and we have an idea of how the day is going to go.  On the other hand it is terrible getting stuck in naptime jail, especially since her awake times are still not very long, making outings a little difficult right now.



Sleep: Bedtime is anywhere between 6 and 7 and she typically sleeps 11-12 hours (angels singing). Plus! she is now in her crib and not being swaddled! Big deal! We had to start sleep training and introduced the zipadeedee sleep suit and she is getting to where we don’t need to put her pinky back in every couple hours.

Clothing: 3-6 months is a terrible clothing size, it is so inconsistent! She is in some 3-6 months and some 6-9; definitely moving into 6-9 pretty solidly.



Development: Big big strides!  I feel as though once she got into her crib we started to see big leaps in development. She was able to move her body more often, considering that she sleeps for 15-16 hours a day, strengthening her body. She can now sit up on her own (for 7 seconds…) and she is really starting to move her body. She is also starting to laugh!! It’s really just big intakes of air and squeals but I love it!

Likes: Baths, eating, the cat, being tickled, Eli.

Dislikes: long car rides, poo diapers, being put to sleep.


Sibling Update: It just gets better and better with these two! Eli went to stay with my parents for about five days and when he saw us, he immediately wanted to see Zoe first.  He always asks to sit and talk to her and as soon as I put her in the bath, he comes running in to join her and just laugh at her playing in the water. Zoe lights up as soon as Eli comes into her line of sight.  When he was out of town, I mentioned his name and she started looking all over for him! Kill me now (and also give me lots more babies and sibling relationships to fall in love with!)




Mom and Dad Update: Why anybody really adores infants is beyond me, because things just keep getting more and more incredible every month.  The more sleep and schedule and routine I can rely on, the better my life is, meaning the better everyone else’s lives are better.  Kenny and I are actually getting the chance to hang out with each other and with family coming into town, we will hopefully be able to get away on a date!


Eli at 3.5



My little dream of a baby boy is quickly growing up. I have never really regretted or been able to get behind the heartbreak of our kids growing up and gaining more independence- until this summer. Perhaps it was the new baby making my first baby grow up so quickly, but I think it’s just that he IS growing up! Eli and I have conversations, his imagination has exploded, he has become my little buddy. The way his vocabulary has grown, matched with the help he offers and the fact that he can get dressed and buckle himself into the car, is just a blinking marquee shouting that my little guy is leaving behind toddlerhood.


Sleep: This summer sleep has been all over the place. Eli needs 12 hours of sleep for every 24 hour period, but he resists naps in every capacity. He goes to sleep between 7 and 9 most nights and takes a nap every couple days.


Favorite Foods: Goodness gracious, this boy is beyond picky! We are starting to introduce a “no thank you” bite rule, but it is slow going. He still loves the same basic foods he has always loved, but I would LOVE to get him to a much wider rotation.

Likes: Swimming, playing outside, Despicable Me, Transformers, riding his car around the block, “hanging out with daddy”, chicken nuggets, books, playing ghost, showering, play-doh, trains, being the boss, his family, saying “amens”, “playing with kids”, being naked, snacking, adventures.


Dislikes: Naps, being quiet, cleaning up.

Eli is friendly, kind, snugly and everything I could hope for. He makes an effort to include other kids when we play. He makes an effort to follow through on his chores and responsibilities within our house and says please and thank you constantly.

Eli throws normal, epic 3 year old tantrums, exaberated by lack of sleep and feelings that are generally too big for his body to handle. He is emotional, sensitive and big hearted.

He is loud and wild, preferring to jump from one spot to another rather than walking. He wants to dance fight, loves to listen to music and can’t walk by one of the animals without bothering them.