Motherhood Musings

I am still processing all that I feel about having two kids. The feelings and emotions are so incredibly vast and intense that I am still searching for the words. With Eli, I had this giant explosion of love and depth for that love that was overwhelming with its intensity. With Zoe it has been this slow unyielding of undoing over the life that I thought I knew and had a grasp on, that has been constantly surprising me with how much love I am capable of experiencing.

Organizing our lives and what I want them to look like has become  my favorite activity, I love dreaming about our family and looking to what the future holds for us.

Eli and Zoe have been following their gender stereotypes to a tee, he was a very physically proficient baby and didn’t talk until he was two, she is super vocal and is seriously lagging in the physical milestone department in comparison to Eli.

Zoe looks so much like Eli as a baby until you put her next to Kenny and you realize that she is his exact duplicate.

As our little family hits its stride and gets into a schedule and routine, I just want to find all new moms and tell them that motherhood requires a solid year and a half of trying to find solid ground.  The pregnancy through postpartum period is so fraught with sleep deprivation and wildly swinging hormones that it becomes really hard to trust yourself.

Eli gets more and more fun everyday, I find myself falling in love with his sweet little personality everyday.

Zoë Five Month Update


Weight: 14.5 pounds


Feeding: Girl loves to eat! She recognizes the word bottle and her eyes get all wide and she starts smiling and waving her arms back and forth, it’s hilarious! We are just barely started to introduce solids, she has been eyeballing any food that I put in my mouth for a couple weeks and she is pumped to get to try it herself.  She is however terrible at eating and mainly spits it all black out.  So far she has tried out applesauce, blueberries, peaches and tomato soup.


Naps: We have finally gotten on a schedule! On the one hand it is glorious to have her get regular sleep and we have an idea of how the day is going to go.  On the other hand it is terrible getting stuck in naptime jail, especially since her awake times are still not very long, making outings a little difficult right now.



Sleep: Bedtime is anywhere between 6 and 7 and she typically sleeps 11-12 hours (angels singing). Plus! she is now in her crib and not being swaddled! Big deal! We had to start sleep training and introduced the zipadeedee sleep suit and she is getting to where we don’t need to put her pinky back in every couple hours.

Clothing: 3-6 months is a terrible clothing size, it is so inconsistent! She is in some 3-6 months and some 6-9; definitely moving into 6-9 pretty solidly.



Development: Big big strides!  I feel as though once she got into her crib we started to see big leaps in development. She was able to move her body more often, considering that she sleeps for 15-16 hours a day, strengthening her body. She can now sit up on her own (for 7 seconds…) and she is really starting to move her body. She is also starting to laugh!! It’s really just big intakes of air and squeals but I love it!

Likes: Baths, eating, the cat, being tickled, Eli.

Dislikes: long car rides, poo diapers, being put to sleep.


Sibling Update: It just gets better and better with these two! Eli went to stay with my parents for about five days and when he saw us, he immediately wanted to see Zoe first.  He always asks to sit and talk to her and as soon as I put her in the bath, he comes running in to join her and just laugh at her playing in the water. Zoe lights up as soon as Eli comes into her line of sight.  When he was out of town, I mentioned his name and she started looking all over for him! Kill me now (and also give me lots more babies and sibling relationships to fall in love with!)




Mom and Dad Update: Why anybody really adores infants is beyond me, because things just keep getting more and more incredible every month.  The more sleep and schedule and routine I can rely on, the better my life is, meaning the better everyone else’s lives are better.  Kenny and I are actually getting the chance to hang out with each other and with family coming into town, we will hopefully be able to get away on a date!